I’ve always had that ability to express myself better through text than spoken words, I’ve written articles, reviews, formal letters and for some reason that is something I haven’t exploited to it’s real extent; my vocabulary is relatively good considering the fact that I’m not a native speaker of the English language. Although, I was able to express to her everything I was feeling, all the landscapes, scenarios, moments; describing colours, textures, situations… even those colourful winged bugs inhabiting inside of me in a never ending celebration of joy… because of her.
We reached the point where we considered all of that was enough to get to know each other to a level of understanding that made us feel as one.
“Love”, is what Ray Charles used to refer as that word you can’t say too often or it’d become ‘cheap’, by mere personal logic I only say it when I mean it and well… it turns out that she just needs to smile to make me struggle catching my own breath before I say to her: “I love you!!!! ” with all the necessary exclamation marks that can express the level of extreme happiness, that consequently make all of those cocoons in my belly to start a beautiful metamorphose.
“Wait a minute! What is this sorcery!?” - I thought, “am I really expressing myself like this?”. I had to realise and seize for once in my life the world that was being presented right on my face, a world that I didn’t have to rule alone anymore but that she is now building also based on fulfilment, happiness and success.
I promised to myself not to ever let her down, we’re actually living in our own world now where there are disagreements, discussions and insecurities but that’s also part of the foundations of life! There’s a playlist of songs that describes us, that defines exactly how we feel about one another and create to our own eyes the perfect love story.
Experience has taught me that maintaining a relationship is not an easy task, that loving someone else is about how good one can complement the other in spite of any flaws each other has, also how good they can handle those and turn them into something both can live with. I believe now that this love I feel for her is so mature and worth of any sacrifice I have to make… because her happiness is now mine as well.
So my fellow readers, I invite you to love, not because of the cheap sensation of fulfilling a need, but for discovering new worlds beyond your comprehension; in my case, I prefer to think she’s a whole universe that I’ll never get tired to explore.
I love you immensely.